im lost....

i am lost and need someone to help me...

its so weird, i can do so many things alone and by myself, i have a great job where i make the choices all day long, i can cook and clean(when i so desire lol) i know what i want to be and how i want to be that person...

however, when it comes to being me, and being happy and making the right choices with love and the such, i get so lost, is S. worth the chance, better yet, is that missing piece worth the chance......loosing him scares me....really scares me....what happens when i lose him and im alone again.....or when i dont have the life i do now.....

but theres so much to gain too.....

so confused...so confused......