Dinner is started and I can stop and think for the hour and a bit till he gets home.....

I am sad when i got get an email from S. in a day.....why it saddens me i do not know...
ha knowing my luck this will last all of 2-3 weeks and he will be gone ......like everyone else other then Solo....

i keep thinking lately that i am going to lose the at weight and i can do it, and i went from being over 300 to under 300 which is amazing to me....
so now all i have to do is get under 200, if i even get a little bit under 200 i would be fucking ecstatic.....no shitting you lol...

im falling for this guy.....S. ....he is more then i expected, seems intelligent, kind, caring, and wanting more then a piece of ass, which means so much more to me....i dont want a piece of ass, if i wanted that then i would either stick with Solo or call someone else, i have options....i dont want that i want more.....oh so much more...

S. wont let me see a picture yet, he hasnt decided if i get to before we meet yet...likes the thought of my nervousness if there is yet to see a picture when we meet.....i dont like that thought...and probably for that sheer fact, now ill have to wait....haha....